By Megan Sullivan (lessa1@geocities.com)
Summary: A week before their wedding, Clark begins to suffer feelings of inadequacy. ***
A week before the wedding, Clark was already nervous. He and Lois were in her apartment. Lois had just gone into the kitchen to get them something to drink. When she came back, she glanced around the room. Clark wasn't immediately visible. After a moment, she saw him. He was on the ceiling, pacing back and forth nervously.
"Clark?"
"Yeah?"
"One question. Why are you on the ceiling?"
"I don't know. I always find myself pacing on the ceiling when I'm nervous about something. I guess I'm nervous."
"About the wedding?"
"Not so much the wedding."
"You're scared about being with me?" she asked in a sad sort of voice.
He came down from the ceiling and wrapped his arms around her. He began to kiss her neck. "Lois, I'm not scared of being with you, I'm nervous about being with you. You know I've never… Well, you know. I'm afraid that I won't be… Oh, I don't know. It's hard to describe this feeling. I love you more than anything, and I want to be with you more than anything. I guess that I just love you so much, that I just want things to be perfect, if that makes any sense to you."
Lois didn't respond, so Clark spun her around until she was facing him. She had tears streaming down her face.
"Lois! What's wrong?"
"I don't know. I don't know why I feel this way."
"Feel what way?"
"I don't know. It's dumb, I guess."
"Lois, nothing you can feel is dumb."
"It's just that… I feel… I feel like that maybe it's my fault that you're so nervous. I mean, I can't help but think that there has to be a reason you feel like this, and maybe it's because of me."
Clark sighed and smiled. "Lois, I love you more than I've ever loved anything or anyone in my entire life. And I guess that you're partially right. I am nervous because of you. I want to make your life perfect. I want to make you happy forever. And I want our wedding to be one of the best moments of your life. And your wedding night to be even more perfect. I don't know why I'm nervous. I've never wanted anything more than this in my entire life."
Tears began to stream down Lois's face again. "Oh Clark."
He folded her into a gentle embrace. They just stood there in each others' arms for a moment, then Lois looked, sniffed, and wiped her eyes. She looked up at Clark and noticed that he had tears in his eyes, too. She couldn't help but giggle through her tears.
"Look at us, Clark. I'm a mess. You're a mess. This is stupid. We're both amazingly happy, yet we're both standing here crying."
He smiled at this. "You're right, as usual. What are we worried about, anyway? We're in love. That's all that matters now. We shouldn't be nervous."
"Weddings are joyful times. If someone saw us like this, they'd think that we're crazy. We've got to lighten up. Forget about all of our worries for a while."
"How about taking a little flight? We could go courtesy of Superman air."
"Where will we go?"
"You'll see."
***
Clark had flown them to a beautiful site. They were standing on a mountain top on a deserted tropical island. The sun was setting and the sky was a multitude of colors.
"Clark, you were right. This is a beautiful spot. Let's just stay here forever."
"Forever? What about the Daily Planet? Won't you miss constantly getting yourself into trouble?"
She gave him a playful swat. "I don't constantly get into trouble. Just kind of often, that's all. I've noticed that you've stopped floating."
"That's because I'm not nervous anymore. I realized that my fears were insignificant and that nothing mattered except my love for you."
"I love you, Clark Kent."
"I love you, too, Lois Lane."
THE END
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